“This is a hard place,” my caring nurse said to me as she watched tears steadily stream down my face. I quickly responded with, “No, it can be, but when it’s good- it’s so good!” The tears originally began after hearing the sound of a strong heartbeat through another patient’s wall. It triggered feelings from my loss and what I could no longer hear. Yet, in my heart I was rejoicing with that Mama on the other side for the fact that God allows us to be a part of His story as He creates new life.
I am now keenly aware of every person in the OBGYN office. I see women with full bellies pass by, young women with nervous smiles, clueless looking men, and older women whose bodies are experiencing the result of their maturation… and I too see women like me. This isn’t a club I would’ve ever asked to join, but I am honored and grateful for it. While I see these women, I can also see all of this as good. This is all a part of God’s design, and it’s a story in which I know the ending.